future and me

I've known this senior for her motivation. she's a very motivational person i have ever met. if you're about to ask this person what she's gonna be in 3,5, and 10 years ahead, she already had the pictures in mind. she always said, plan your future because as you are planning, actually you have goals you want to accomplish and you'll eventually strive for them.

i did try to be as motivational as her. i tried to plan, imagine, and think what and who i am in the future. unfortunately i couldn't. maybe i am not ambitious enough. maybe the trying was not enough. i don't know. but in the end, i still blame myself for not being ambitious enough to pursue all these things.

i am going to be a final year dental student in a month time. honestly and truthfully speaking, i am scared. afraid. anxious. excited is absolutely a big no. time is definitely running out. i have to start studying again. study with all my might like i did 5 years ago during spm. huh, ages. wish good luck to me.